I can make you scared, that's kinda what I do.

Weighed in this morning at 121.2 lbs.
Down a bit more from last week. I am starting to feel a bit better about how my body looks.
But I am also getting fatigued, and it is getting harder and harder to keep up the 6 meals/day.
My snacks keep getting less and less substantial.
They used to be nuts - then smoothies - then apples - now half an apple.
Maybe I should just reverse the trend and start going backwards? ;)

I was just perusing through my food diary (obsessive, no?) and realized that I have not binged since March 14.
That's almost 3 weeks!
*doing a happy dance in my head*

Went to a hatha yoga class tonight.
It wasn't a workout, per se, but I feel all nice and stretched out now.
I wish there were a power yoga class I could alternate this one with, so I felt like I was actually working.
But we'll see if I am sore tomorrow.

Getting nervous about the trip to visit my family.
There will be food. EVERYWHERE.
I am going with a meal plan in my head.
I plan on getting out of the house to avoid it if necessary.
I will go to the gym once during the trip.

I told my mom I didn't want her to come back and stay with me afterwards.
I was honest. I told her I was working on a new thing - eating 6 meals and trying to stop the binging and starving cycles that I have been trapped in for 3 years.
She didn't take it well.
I must hide my disorder better than I thought, since she thought I already had it all under control.
Not even close, mom.
Not even close.
People think I am recovered because I'm not 79 lbs.
But at least then I felt good about myself.