It gets you running, chasing something...

Just got the blogger app for my iPhone, which has been recently acquired.

This could be very good news or very bad. I might be posting way more often than anyone would like to read.

Thank you all for the welcome back and the offers for support. I appreciate it immensely. It often feels like I am alone in all this, because its not something we come out and say in casual conversation with people we meet.

"Oh yeah, well, I have an eating disorder and cannot tolerate the shape of my body. If I could starve myself then maybe I wouldn't hate myself so much."

But you all understand. You are there or have been there, too.

Thank you. :)

I should return to work, I suppose.
I have a new job now, I'm a postie. :)

The end is the beginning.

I last posted in May.
A lot has happened.

Thanks to Claire and Avy for your little notes - I just saw them now.


Too much has gone on for me to even know where to begin.
But I am fat. SO FAT.

It's time for all this to change.
I will be tiny.
I want it, I really do.
I swear I want it enough to work for it.

If you are still listening, thank you.

I need this.
I deserve this.