My mom is here visiting so I am eating lots and very non-vegan-like. :( I will update again when she is gone and I start eating better.

Ugh.

Thoughts

It gets easier and easier to consume less and less. 475 calories today.
I know this is so wrong, so unhealthy.
I feel so good knowing that I am empty, that I will be thinner.

“Courage does not always roar. Sometimes, it is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “I will try again tomorrow.” – Unknown

Post Pizza Non-Binge Party

Here's my flowers. Tulips. They make me smile.
Yay for images now working - strange blogger glitch I suppose.
Unfortunately I'm still not able to see my followers.

2 of my cookbooks arrived today - the Happy Herbivore Cookbook and Vegan with a Vengeance. I've flipped through the latter a little and read the intro, but I plan on spending some more quality time with them tonight, and tomorrow while I am bored at work. ;)

I did pretty much follow the recipe for pizza dough found in Vegan with a Vengeance, though, for our homemade pizzas we had tonight. I was very brave making pizza. I ALWAYS binge with pizza. Whether it's a frozen Delissio, Panago's, or healthy homemade - doesn't matter - it seems to be a trigger food for me.
But N asked for pizza, so pizza I had to give. The crusts turned out really good, more fluffy than my usual ones. I usually buy the Pillsbury dough, split it in half, and roll it to death to make 2 thin-crust pizzas. These were better, I think, and comparable in calories. I'm thinking the difference might be that I just spread it out and stretched it with my hands, no rolling pin required.
Anyhow, I topped mine with a pesto made from basil, tomato paste, leftover roasted garlic from my soup yesterday, pine nuts, and a hint of olive oil. I also put on some spinach leaves, yellow peppers, red onions, and black beans. I didn't have any vegan cheese, and I doubt I would like fake cheese anyhow, so I just left it off completely. I'm used to putting very little cheese on my homemade pizzas anyhow. It was a totally weird combination but delicious nonetheless. It made a whole pizza, which I cut into 8ths and ate 2 slices.
211 calories for 2 slices of pizza. Not bad if I do say so myself.

I bought a LaraBar yesterday, the apple one. Saw it at Wal-Mart and thought I would try one, being that they are vegan and all. So I ate half yesterday (100 cals) and the rest this morning with my coffee. I like that they are so simple in the ingredients, and have been looking up recipes to make them myself. I might try that if I ever feel like I could do it without eating it all at once. I don't have that self-control yet. As soon as I start baking/making treats, you know a binge is imminent.

I'm exhausted, and I think our house may be falling apart. Found a nice wet spot on the carpet at the bottom of the stairs. I'm really hoping one of the girls just spilled a water bottle down there. I am too tired to deal with it now. Hopefully the towels soak it up and it doesn't re-occur.

So goodnight, and here's my fridge to see you off.
It's packed full of stuff, but most of it's pretty healthy.