It's a sad, sad world; when a girl will go and break a boy just because she can

Shall I try vegan tomorrow?

Full-time work term is now over. Now I should sleep.
Except that this stupid ear infection is keeping me awake.
I'm like what, 3 years old getting ear infections?
It happens when I am overwhelmed.

Good night girls.

It gets you running, chasing something...

Just got the blogger app for my iPhone, which has been recently acquired.

This could be very good news or very bad. I might be posting way more often than anyone would like to read.

Thank you all for the welcome back and the offers for support. I appreciate it immensely. It often feels like I am alone in all this, because its not something we come out and say in casual conversation with people we meet.

"Oh yeah, well, I have an eating disorder and cannot tolerate the shape of my body. If I could starve myself then maybe I wouldn't hate myself so much."

But you all understand. You are there or have been there, too.

Thank you. :)

I should return to work, I suppose.
I have a new job now, I'm a postie. :)

The end is the beginning.

I last posted in May.
A lot has happened.

Thanks to Claire and Avy for your little notes - I just saw them now.


Too much has gone on for me to even know where to begin.
But I am fat. SO FAT.

It's time for all this to change.
I will be tiny.
I want it, I really do.
I swear I want it enough to work for it.

If you are still listening, thank you.

I need this.
I deserve this.